Dearest Jesus, the time when I gave my heart fully to You in December 2012, I was already very traumatized, but You have used my pain to grow my love for You. I then recommitted myself to You in July 2021, after I was traumatized again since July 2019, throughout 2020 and until now. I am twenty-six years old, but Lord, you still see a purpose in me despite of my youth.
There was too much trauma for Jessica, that I had identity fragmentation, therefore Alice, Poppy and Engel came in to hold the extra loads of traumas. I wonder whether the second round of massive testing from July 2019 to July 2021, was to test that I can do nothing on my own, but all power and strength comes from You. It had been very humbling.