Dearest Jesus, I complain not, for I delight to dance in my trials and storms that You allow. Please continue to sustain me through the hard trials. No one would want to take my place, because it was already very hard ever since I surrendered to You in 2012 and even harder between July 2019 to July 2021, there was refinement like no other.
I believe You have allowed the bad things in my life, especially from July 2019 to 2021, so when I come to You, it was from trials of affliction that no one wants to go through I suppose, because it was very confusing and very painful, despite it was refinement of coming to You and running away from You, then coming back to You.