Dearest Jesus, I look forward to the time when I will no longer have complex traumas, at the time of transformation that will come my healing as you have said. I am full-time disabled, but despite this, You see a purpose in me. Due to my disability, I came closer to You more in my pain, my reliance and surrender to You became greater.
The very first feeling I had experienced ever since the flashbacks in 2016 was extreme humiliation. I feel that I was born already very traumatized for no reason and I have went through traumas my entire life. The trauma was so profound that I was using numbers to express my pain and even architecturally. Then in my pain, I have found You Father and I regret my trials not.