I could not imagine how it feels like, to be happy for an eternity as You Jesus had told me, that I will not feel sad anymore very soon. Being traumatized myself had always been the norm, for it had lasted from early childhood to adulthood. I am right now 26 years old, but I have went through pain at a different level that only God understands.
I have intellectual disability, which had caused me self-blame about how I could not handle with simple tasks that other adults can do, but I find it very hard or near impossible to do it myself. There is a feeling of barrier between me and the world, as my psychiatrist had diagnosed me with autism. I have sensory overload, when someone touches me slightly and I feel very uncomfortable. Father Jesus, it is not only complex traumas, but also intellectual disability are wearing me down. Please lift me up.