Dearest Jesus, I have learnt to sing Your praises, despite I have been feeling suicidal for years. The pain in 2016 was already very great, the pain was more extreme in 2017 and it only got worse in 2018, 2019 and in 2020 it was a different level of pain and so as 2021 beyond extreme. Father, You know the pain that I have gone through.
I praise You Father for all the storms, trials and tribulations, for it is when it draws me closer to You during those years. I praise You Father for all the pain, which had drawn me ever closer to You. In the pain, I have learnt to sing to You, rejoice in You and rely in You, in my weaknesses, failures and disappointments, I then see You wide and clear.