Dearest Jesus, please heal my complex traumas. I could not write much due to feeling very unwell and weak. I know that these trials of feeling unwell has a purpose, that being a believer, does not mean it can be put away from me, for if it is to refine my heart to a heart of pure gold, I would. I feel honoured that I have trials, for You said there is a reward for this.
Please give me the desire of my heart, that I would like to be next to You in heaven for an eternity ahead. I am young, but please make up the years. I fell and got back up all the time, coming back to You. I do not have friends, which I consider an advantage that I can spend the most time in You. You have given me hopes, in my hopelessness from my traumas.