I would like to share about my testimony of how I was able to find the light out of this seemingly eternally dark tunnel. There were many years in the past, where I was running to and fro in this world, finding all the answers that I needed. However, no matter how much worldly addictions that I was caught up in, how much earthly accomplishments that I have made and how much worldly possessions that I owned, I was still left void and empty inside of me, even suicidal.
Back in the year of 2012, I was touched by a light. I was touched by the Father of lights, who is Jesus Christ. He started showing me of what He did on the cross for me, that while I was yet remained in my sins, that He gave His life for me, His everything and this was how it came to the decision to surrender my life completely to Him, the One to be the Lord of my life. The love that was displayed on the cross was like no other, because the scriptures say that God is love Himself and that there is no greater love than laying down one’s life for another’s sake, so that I could be saved by His blood that forgives my sins and can spend an eternity with Jesus, the first One who loved me in my mother’s womb.
The Father started revealing His tender love for me and showed me that I do not even have to earn a bit of love from Him, for He loves me without condition, and this is also the same for each and every one of you, of whom the Lord loves you all equally. In Him, there is a perfect love that no one can ever do, but only Jesus can, because He is God Himself, three in one, in the form of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Since God’s nature is perfect and all-mighty, His love is a very powerful force that cannot be contained and could overcome every fibre of our being; a love that floods through to the deepest layer of our hearts as a healing balm to the soul, for He loves us all without partiality, always faithful and a love that is ever present, even when you hit the lowest of the low.
He is there. He was there and He will always be there for you.
When you thought that you were all alone and that no one understands your pain, He was there and He knows everything about you, even better than you know about yourself, for He knows all and He sees all. When you think that there is a pain within you to the point that you think you are too wounded to be healed, and feeling like you have no hope and value in yourself anymore, His Word says that nothing is impossible for God and this includes healing the deepest of wound that you may have, caused by the trauma of this life. The Father in heaven sees you as a very unique individual that no one, ever, can replace you in this world. In His eyes, you are very special to Him, because there is a hole in His heart that only you can fill it in and there is a void in the hearts of humanity, that only Jesus can fill it in. His arms are wide open, ready to embrace you as His beloved child, with a love that is pure.
Putting aside psychiatric medication, seeking a counsellor/ psychologist and a psychiatric doctor, it really all comes back to the Maker of the heart, for He is the sole solution, the true Counsellor and the everything that we need. No matter what you have done and how far you have ran away from Jesus, He is there with eyes of mercy. He wants to have an intimate relationship with you on a daily basis, to share this life’s journey together, of the ups and the downs, the highs and the lows, as He holds your hand towards the way home.