The higher the level of dissociation, the greater the magnitude of trauma it reflects.
There are many more consequences of trauma that we have been through, but here are the main highlights. We dissociate daily, of the self, environment and interaction, in order to buffer from the traumatic pain.
Due to our extensive trauma history background, our feelings and reactions are amplified a thousand times more, beyond much control. We suffer extreme polar-opposite reactions, rendering it hard to make relationships.
We have encountered a traumatized state, through the welling up of tears every moment, beyond our control. One of our dissociative visualization, our subconscious mind shows us that our cries were piercing the sky.
There are extremely traumatized parts within us, there are ones that avoid eye contacts, always look down, cuddle themselves up with their hands and arms and some curl up completely of their body, fingers and hands.
There are parts of us that are too traumatized that they cannot speak and remain permanently mute, because it hurts too much to speak. Silence to them, heals their wounds a bit overtime and for them to process the trauma.
There are extremely traumatized parts within us that have trauma-based acute sensitivity to all types of sound, touch, movement, thought and sight, because it is too overwhelming and distressing for them.
We also have been diagnosed with recurrent exacerbation of Major Depressive Episode on a chronic background of Dysthymia, which has led as to coma-like sleeping; in a bedridden state for most of the day, everyday.
We are right now living in disability (including not being able to go back to academics yet, due to not being able to concentrate), recovering every single day and are indefinite about the time of reaching towards complete healing.
We have acute suicidal tendencies on a daily basis, in life-threatening condition and at risk to be hospitalized all the time. We have been involuntarily hospitalized before and therapy is helping us not to be re-admitted again.
Other than seeing our psychiatrist, we are also seeing our psychologist; therapist for therapy, often in a bi-weekly basis, if not, on a weekly basis. We have been having heavy support in-between sessions as well.